I'm missing you more than ever / Jasmine Peyton (Girlfriend)Read >>
I'm missing you more than ever / Jasmine Peyton (Girlfriend) Dear LaVonne...It's a shame all i have are memories of you..I can't look you in the eyes anymore and it's so hard on me. I can't believe this has happened but just know that i loved you and i will always love you. I will be up there to see you again don't worry..you're safe nowClose
To you a good friend / Natilya Smith (friend)Read >>
To you a good friend / Natilya Smith (friend) I know you is up there with our father God looking down on everyone you know and love we miss you very much there not a day go by. that i don't see you smile tilya you was a good friend always keep everyone happy all ways no how to have fun all ways respect and all ways was a good mother.there is so much that i can say about but we love you.Close
It's been over 4 yrs and not any easier... / Amy Duncan (Susie's daughter )Read >>
It's been over 4 yrs and not any easier... / Amy Duncan (Susie's daughter )
I think of my mom every day and my heart aches. I have a 3 yr old she never got to hold and an 11 yr old that misses her grandma so. My mom was shot and killed 8/6/02 by my dad, who is currently in prison for this. It has taken me about 3 1/2 yrs to finally decide to communicate with him. It is very hard. I get angry alot when he talks about how his father is ill (in his 80's) etc.... and I let him know how it hurts me (atleast he knows his father is falling ill not just snatched away). I pray every day for me to forgive him and let the Lord handle my burden. If anyone mentioned the word forgive to me before I was ready to do it I would explode. I would ask them how they can tell me this when they have not personally gone through the same thing? They would say but, he's your dad. I didn't care, I was soooo ANGRY that he took my mom (she was only 48 y/o). I still have bouts of anger, but I pray. I finally realized my high blood pressure, anxiety, anger...I was going to worry myself into an early grave. I was not going to let this take me away from MY kids. My dad also has schizophrenia, but I wouldn't accept that as the reason for him shooting my mom (he was not taking his meds) and I'm still not entirely sure that is the sole reason....only God can avenge/bless properly I have learned through TONS of web searching, and reading about grief...etc God bless everyone here...a wonderful book is Total Forgiveness by R. T. Kendall. It is rationale yet true. Close
It's been over 4 yrs and not any easier... / Amy Duncan (Susie's daughter )Read >>
It's been over 4 yrs and not any easier... / Amy Duncan (Susie's daughter )
I think of my mom every day and my heart aches. I have a 3 yr old she never got to hold and an 11 yr old that misses her grandma so. My mom was shot and killed 8/6/02 by my dad, who is currently in prison for this. It has taken me about 3 1/2 yrs to finally decide to communicate with him. It is very hard. I get angry alot when he talks about how his father is ill (in his 80's) etc.... and I let him know how it hurts me (atleast he knows his father is falling ill not just snatched away). I pray every day for me to forgive him and let the Lord handle my burden. If anyone mentioned the word forgive to me before I was ready to do it I would explode. I would ask them how they can tell me this when they have not personally gone through the same thing? They would say but, he's your dad. I didn't care, I was soooo ANGRY that he took my mom (she was only 48 y/o). I still have bouts of anger, but I pray. I finally realized my high blood pressure, anxiety, anger...I was going to worry myself into an early grave. I was not going to let this take me away from MY kids. My dad also has schizophrenia, but I wouldn't accept that as the reason for him shooting my mom (he was not taking his meds) and I'm still not entirely sure that is the sole reason....only God can avenge/bless properly I have learned through TONS of web searching, and reading about grief...etc God bless everyone here...a wonderful book is Total Forgiveness by R. T. Kendall. It is rationale yet true. Close
If I had only known / Judy (Gregg's Mom) Gibson (Mother)
If I had only known it was our last walk in the rain I'd keep you out for hours in the storm I would hold your hand la lifeline to my heart And underneath the thunder we'd be warm If I had only known it was our last walk in the rain
If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again I'd memorize each thing you ever said And on these lonely nights, I could think of them once more And keep your words alive inside my head If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again
You were the treasure in my heart You were the one who always stood beside me So unaware, I foolishly believed that you would always be there
But there came a day when I closed my eyes and you slipped away
If I had only known it was my last night by your by your side I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn And when you smiled at me, I would look into your eyes And make sure you know my love for you goes on and on If I had only know, If I had only known
The love I would've shown If I had only known...
By Jana Stanfield
Son, I'm glad we shared unconditional love, it brings me comfort to know that no matter what was going on in our lives, we always knew our love for one another was pure and that there was/is nothing we wouldn't do for each other. God bless you now and may he keep you safe until we meet again... Forever Your Momma
Heart broken / Shelly Scott (lavonne's mom )Read >>
Heart broken / Shelly Scott (lavonne's mom )
February 15, 2006 has forever changed my life. My 2 children were viciously shot on my front porch while the family was home witha 12 gauge shotgun. My oldest child 19 yo survived with some significant injuries. However, my baby-18 yo was murdered that night. 2 days later 6 people were charged with the murder and attempted murder of my only children. Jealousy is the only reason I can see. My neighborhood was a quiet neighborhood and I'd lived there 11 years, half the time doors and windows were unlocked. Never in my wildest dreams did I think someone could be so malicious as to PLAN a murder and then execute the plan. I am numb and distraught over my son's loss of his young life. Both children had just celebrated birthdays in January only to have February change our life forever. I often wonder if he suffered much. His surviving brother and myself are stuck in the grief as others have moved on. This is an awful experience and a parents worse nightmare to bury a child. My heart goes out to all the parents experiencing this type of loss. My prayers are for us all as we try to obtain some normalcy back in the spiraling cycle of violence fallen upon our family. May God bless us all and keep us in His loving arms.
This grief PAIN / Kay Crawford (Mother)
I lost my oldest son to violence June 15, 2005. My life has forever changed and will never be the same due to some punk/thugs who were jealous. Jealousy is the only reason I can find that they shot my son four times. Thankfully they have the shooter in custody, but who know what the trial will bring. I often find myself wondering if he was in great pain before he died, work is not the same anymore as everyone has moved on and I seem to be stuck in this awful place. His brother and sister grieve like I do and life seems even more unfair nowadays.I hurt as I read the other stories here as I know what each of you must be going through too. Life does not hold many joys lately and I know I have two other children and his daughter to bring some light to my dismal days, but it is only a temporary comfort and brief at best. I pray every night that this pain will ease, but the closer I get to his one year angel anniversary the more gloomy I become. I find myself searching for more information about death and dying, I have a strong faith, but still find myself wondering 'What if' I miss my son so much and can never see his gleaming smile, see him dance again, pose for me, call me daily and say "momma how are YOU today?" Who had the right to say who lives or dies, how dare they play God? Man has gotten too arrogant for his own good. Thank you for this site to honor our loved ones lost to violence! Thank you all for visiting Joshua's site and leaving kind words, I read and it brings some comfort to know he will never be forgotten.
Marking Time / Joshua's Mom (a greiving mother )Read >>
Marking Time / Joshua's Mom (a greiving mother )
I visit here daily. I look at each face and think about their lives and the hell they experienced at their last moments. Sometimes it's just too much. Then I think of the other mothers like myself missing a part of our heart, life, love, and everything we held dear. I yearn to hold Josh in my arms again , to smell his hair, to smell "him". To hear his voice again. To hear his walk and know he is home safe. I wait patiently to die now, knowing it isn't quite fair to my surviving son, but I just want Josh........Joshua's Mom Close
This is my beautiful son Kevin, and my only child. He was murdered on September 3, 2005 during a fist fight. A fist fight??? Some little coward piece of shit sliced his chest apart and he bled to death. Kevin didn't have a chance. Not only did I lose the love of my life, the kid that killed him was sentenced as a juvenile because his mother was an alcoholic and his father was a part time father. Have you ever in your life heard of such nonsense from a Judge??? My son is dead for no reason, and there will be no justice for him. This is an unbearable pain that we all must bear. I wish that I could just join Kevin today. This isn't a life without him. What has this world come to???
I am so sorry for all of your losses and I truly share in your grief.
I lost my father to a random act of violence on September 10th 2005. My father was the most gentle and loving person I've ever known. To know how he had to leave this earth hurts me everyday. The many happy memories keep me going, as well as the love from my family. My father was a God fearing man and that is a comfort to me as well. I still hurt over the fact that no one has been caught and they are able to walk around, see and interact with their loved ones. Those priviledges were ripped from my family and I.
Daddy, the main comfort I have is you. Knowing that I had YOU as a father is maintaining me now. I can still hear you laugh and tell me you love me. I love you!!
we also lost a precious Grandaughter to violence / Rose Dunsing (visitor)Read >>
we also lost a precious Grandaughter to violence / Rose Dunsing (visitor)
So sorry about your great loss. i know the pain is unbareable. Our beautiful Brittany Syfert was shot in the heart, lungs, and three other places on her body by her boyfriend at a family gathering to celabrate her birthday & her younger sisters; When her so called boyfriend got a 9mm and shot her infront of about 20 family members. Not to mention four younger sisters. The pain never stops.May our precious angels rest in peace until we meet them again. Close
My Only Son Gerrick / Diane Davies (Gerrick's mother )Read >>
My Only Son Gerrick / Diane Davies (Gerrick's mother )
I love you so much and miss you so much Gerrick, and I feel empty and lost, and life will never ever be the same again. Only you made life a gift, only you held our family together, and you touched so many lives just by being you. Your genunine kindness and goodness and caring showed in every way and in everyday of your young life. My heart aches to see you, to hold you, to watch you grow older, my broken heart longs for you my son. My Gerrick, my world, my everything, life means nothing without you. I love you my son and long for you soooo... GERRICK DAVIES Forever loved honored and cherished
My son was brutally murdered right after his 18th birthday.
condolences/ Bruce Cook (chaplain)
The following people were murdered in five county Metro Atlanta in 2005 and their families have my condolences and sympathy
Chaplain Bruce Cook
Clayton County
Larry Bishop Jr. Mona Monique Crosdale Rasheda Morgan Dorian Shea Roberson Ramatoulie Demba Charles Ammons Jonathan Roy Worley Crystal Williams Alberto Fermin Gaytan Anthony Devon Hicks Xavier Arnez Miranda Alfred Edwin Smith Jr. Janice Cunningham Elisha Nicole Brown Ensign James Randolph Motley McMurtry Amanda Lynn Hall Norberto Canela Quintin Brian Burks Trevon Wilson Leon Ramirez
Cobb County
Lisa Bourquardez Cedric Lewis Waylon George Stanley Sams Dharren Henderson Devin Payton Toney Dennis Tamarisol Durham Richard Compton Alberto Ramirez Natilya Smith James Staud Mildred Kimbrough Kimberly Boyd Tara DrummondJulio Escobar Kasi Peek Kathy Harper Leroy Baker Antonio Lee Tony Bhatt Leonard Hansen Brian Epp George Jennings Don Holder Allan Cheek Thomas Sanchez Demetrio Beltre Marcia Beltre
Dekalb County
Darryl Logan-Bland James L. Meadows Edmond Glass Desmond James Powell Romeo Mair Brett L. Lanier Sarnard Hardeman James Bussey Michael Childs Jermaine Williams Edward G. Lewis Tarrence D. Crawford Elton McCormick Jr. Derrick Smith Francis M. Ortega Quintavious Dodson Rodwell Jones Gerald Stinson Jr. Christopher Graham Anita Redmon Sara Patrick Wesley Hagan K. I. Keith Jr. Shakil Harris Deshon Taylor Tereone Tod Tamauris Darnell Smith Xavier Law Tyrone Jones Carla Power Adrian Pless Nancy Rampage Shane Zundel Christopher Dunlap Dinesh G. Shah McCine Brown Johnson Clifford Copeland Pamela Bowen Terrell B. Webb David St. Laurent Glen Vaugh, Jr. Jesus Ferriera Sabino Salinas Brarkus Johnson Ahmed Childs Dknon Harris Misael O. Portillo Dante X. Cook Travis Gober Henry L. Clark, III David Lang Michele Denise Melton Usher Walters Eric McWilliams Tiffany Frazier Noor Tannai Jose Aguero-Ramirez Ellis Cabrera-Gonzalez Ashley Stokes Jemarco Holland Atiim Willis Bobby Lee Barkon Jr. James Brannen Derell James Darbelio S. Mascada Hermelo I. Delalid Darius Sims Thaddeus Paul Patterson Ridley Thomas Miriam Dias-Portillo Michael Christopher Roberts Roderick Dewayne Finney Tamela Nicol Dunbar Juan Cordoba Adolfo S. Sanchez Jahkela Deon Elmes Oliverio Uribe Eric Banks Calvin Brewster Mohammad Abdul Mannen Gayluak Bitlow Amber Jermaine Felton
Fulton County
Booker Walton Shawn Powe Julio Cesar-Munoz Joseph Smith Carl R Griffin Ken Torkelson Leo Ford Michael A Toles Jermaine A Willis Stacy D Morman Kenta Patterson Gregory J Smith Marcus A Key Cheryl Miranda Francisco Javier Hernandez-Garcia Martin Bocanegra, Jr. Julie A Brandau Rowland W Barnes Hoyt K Teasley Amanda L Haywood David Wilhelm Alfred Jackson Sr. Reginald I Hayes Lawrence W Thrasher Marcos E Cabrera Daniel P Salinas Shuntavious Porter Antorio Adams Harold D Pullins Ashton Correia Kyung J Lee Jack R Snook Jeffrey L McNeill Fremory R Koita Xavier Law Layman C Webb Quartez Armour Damiane Cole Pearlie Kennedy Kenneth Wimbush Shah A Walton Emmanuel DeDios-Victoriano Brandon L Williams Mark Cross Odell Sneed Sham Suddin Eugene Copeland Trevor A Ambrose Matthew M Neal Jermaine Binns Wharton C Murray Eddie Shaheed Jae S Kim Herman Winslow Arealius N Glenn Jamal S Poole Carol R Whitmire Maynon Freeman Jr. LaTanya Walker Adrian D Woods Walter D Richardson, Jr. Nellie M Kirkland Moises Hernandez Eula M Tucker Markeith Reid Bobby Johnson Frederick A York Jon J Givens Christopher Wright Denzel D Jackson Guillerno Cruz Ron K Strozier Samuel Maddox Larry J Alexander Leonard Sands Donnie Miller Kenneth B Kemp Rodney E Franklin Anthony Battle Kenyon Beaty Ashley C White Oscar L Nance Beverly J Shields Jason S Richards Jeremiah Ingram Fatima Fisher Leo O Ford Harold Philpot Trent Percy Fredrick O Epps Letitia L Smith Wallace Jamelson Joseph Jacobs Ben Sullen, Jr. Sherren L Parham Jarvis Lowe Fritz Alphonse Jeffrey Wingfield Gary L Stanton Stephen J Dulin Artearia Love Victor A Edwards Reginald Smith Melchor F Galindo Alonzo Aguilar Alan Morris Rico T Lowe Justin R Dolly Leondra Steen Joshua A Rickman Richard Davis Napoleon Freeman John C Goolsby Amady P Seydi Addonist Cunningham Shane E Tasca Roy Fallen Freddie R Berry Terry Arnold, Jr. Miracle L Farmer Kenneth T Seay Wendell Garland Garypaul E Francis Barry D Balkcom, Jr. Eugene Grant Dantrell L Cole Barbara J Davis Julian A Oliver Soloman Wynn David Acevedo-Serrano Abelardo Rodriguez-Abarca Candiace E Person Mamadou S Barry Charles E Quigg Tacorian Gause Jermaine Bowlds Malcolm Fox William E Clark Keith Taylor Badroun Haidura John L Ranger Kenneth J Black Gregory Smith Antonio Ryans Kenneth Merriweather
Gwinnett County
Anwar Charlie Harris Hubert Massey Samuel Rodriguez-Vera Terry Davis Kareem A. Nicholson Paul J. Blackwell Ricardo Orozco-Infanie William H. Marsingill Mary. L. Chambers Patricia H. McKiernan Clifton Daniel Oscar Hernandez Saul. I. Ortiz-Roblero Maria Olivera-Reyes Reginald Storey Shawn Washington Sharon E. Main Angelia Green Brandon Fowler Charles Partridge (by vehicle) Ricky Ainsworth " Kevin Thiel " Donald Hughes " Latoya Peart " Yovani Flores " Jonathan Jolly " Anthony Littrean " Pablo Medrano " Jose Flores " Andrew Sezonov " Stacey Carnocho " Jimmie Strowder " Frederick Aronja " Kim Tan " Larry Little " Cervante Mitchell "
Love and best wishes to Di-Di / Bea Maksimovic (friend)Read >>
Love and best wishes to Di-Di / Bea Maksimovic (friend)
Dianne
We miss your smiling face and your cheeky humour, but above all we feel sorry that you are not here to be a mother for Kayde. You were a brilliant mother in the very short time you had with your little man. I still cannot believe that we will not see each other again to share a drink, a laugh and to support each other.
Rest in eternal peace, chicken Your loving friends Bea and Tom xxxxxxxxxxx Close
So sorry / Jane Jones (Matt's Mom )
I am so sorry for your loss of your son. I know the act of violence all too well. My son Matt was murdered on 11/06/05, he was 19. He was expecting a child in April 2006. May the light of our children lost to violence shine forever. All parents who have endured this are in my prayers. God never meant evil to be in this world but HE WAS there when it happened and stepped in to take our lovely children home.
Thank You! / Judy Gibson (Mother of Gregg W. Gibson, II Innocent Victim of Urban Gang Terrorism )Read >>
Thank You! / Judy Gibson (Mother of Gregg W. Gibson, II Innocent Victim of Urban Gang Terrorism )
Dear Library of Life, thank you from the bottom of my broken heart for providing such a wonderful service to those of us who have suffered the unimaginable - the loss of a loved one through violence. Your website format provided me with a way to memorialize my son's life and a way to stay connected with him. The photo album tells his short life story, the lit candles, tributes and condolences allow others to continue to honor him. This site has truly helped me along my path of healing. Close
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I know you is up there with our father God looking down on everyone you know and love we miss you very much there not a day go by. that i don't see you smile tilya 
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